I have made the probably stupid decision
to follow everyone who follows me. LETS GO!
It is hard to believe I try so hard. In the end, there is little to show. I try to compliment everyone and make them like me. All I do is answer the questions in class, and sometimes, occasionally, an angry “shut up” will cross my lips in the midst of a chaotic classroom. Besides that, I do not see anything that would make someone hate me or think I was a mean person.
Unfortunately, they still do.
Some people think it is the best to be the first one noticed in a room. I suppose it is in most cases, but not in mine. People notice me first, not because they care about me or want to go and talk to me, but because they want to see what mistakes I have made. They like to point out things wrong with me. My guidance counselor has said that it is because I do so many things that they feel like they have to point out all of my imperfections in order to feel like they are my equal. I don’t think that. I think they do it on purpose just to bother me. They think that I like being a nerd and a teacher’s pet. They think I enjoy it so much and love having those labels flashing on my forehead so much that they think I need a little bit of an ego cut. They think I am conceded or that I need to learn that I am not the cream of the crop.
It is horrible when you walk into a room and all the eyes are on you because they want to see what is wrong. It can drive you crazy.
There is something poetic about snowfall. Snowflakes don’t live a very long life, but they leave an unforgettable mark.
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I yell too much.
Apparently, what I say doesn’t matter.
When I keep my mouth shut I need to speak more.
When I say what I feel it is ignored or shot down.
I can’t seem to get it right huh.
So there is this derpy girl in my school
Her name is Leovince. I don’t really hang around her much (ya know, for my reputation <3) but I hear about all her inside jokes with her friends. Apparently her name is like an insult or somthing. I dunno. I would be pretty honored to be called a Leovince but that is just me. She does this dancing stuff (I know, loser right?) but that is cool I guess. I sat near her in Language arts for the entire first marking period and we made faces at each other (because we all know I’m a derp too) and one day she saw me shaking my tongue around so she sometimes calls me Alois (anime inside joke in case you don’t get it) and then one day we were chatting it up when suddenly our teacher put me and the rest of my row on the other side of the classroom. I was super angry. Now, I don’t get to talk to her as much. I mean it isn’t like we were BESTIES before but like, I dunno. I felt like we were really making progress. I have her phone number, and sometimes when I am bored I will dial it and then stop. I just am afraid to call her ya know? I wanna hang out with her but I am afraid derp + derp = disaster. Ugh, but chya. This girl Leovince isn’t a derp at all, she is really cool and I really want to be her good friend. And yeah, okay :P follow her if ya feel like it. www.leothetiger.tumblr.com … kay yeah.
